Monday, March 14, 2011

this is it...

ok so i have waited until THE last minute to post pictures of finley's nursery. the ottoman came today....and i just couldn't post pictures without it... so here it is! i am thrilled with the way it turned out!
it looks TOTALLY different than it did...but this sweet girl needed her own room. if you can't tell, the ceiling is a light grey and her pictures will go in the frames. the ottoman opens up and we can store goodies inside :) her bedding is a gold fabric with a sparkly silver thread that runs through it. it is quite fabulous :) and i know we are missing a letter....ryan hasn't confirmed her middle name yet. ha! so not like us!
and i just loved this! we are hanging it up tonight.

well that's about it. i can't wait to bring little bit home! thanks so much for all of your prayers. we feel so blessed to have so many wonderful friends and family.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

counting down

while i have been handling life better than i expected right now, i find my emotions right under the surface. while this is such an exciting time for finley will make her arrival on tuesday ( i am so thrilled)...there is certainly fear, apprehension, and sadness about where we have been. this sounds so silly...i know...but since loosing wyatt it has been hard to imagine ever being able to have a baby. as if, because we lost one we will never have another. i am sure it is because wyatt was our first and we were never able to bring him home. i just cannot imagine being able to actually leave a hospital with our child and experience life with children. the good news is that by the grace of God we will be able to experience this next week and i will hopefully rid myself of this fear.
as i was working out with a friend this morning....or maybe not working out too hard :)..more like spending some good quality time with a friend :)...she was asking me how ryan and i have been doing and basically if i thought we would be ok before tuesday i was again reminded how blessed i am to have such incredible friends. i know i have said this before, but i truly believe it, God certainly works through you when you allow Him. so, thank you! and yes, we should be ok. but i do think will have some emotional moments in between. while our hearts are so overjoyed to meet our sweet girl, we continue to miss our little boy. i guess before we lost wyatt i just figured or liked to think that time would heal someones broken heart and that another child would fill that emptiness. it was a great life would be much easier then. i just didn't know any better....but now i do. time has allowed God to work in my heart and teach me how to live with our loss. time has allowed God to comfort me and grow closer to Him. time has allowed God to show me how to live with both sorrow and joy simultaneously. time has allowed Him to do mighty works in my life. and for that i am forever thankful. so no, time does not heal a broken heart or take away the pain...but God will. He gives us the strength to get through each and every day. He shows us unconditional love. and promises that one day He will take away all our pain. knowing this, i can live a life of thankfulness and happiness here on earth despite where we have been. thank you God! and thank you for our sweet blessing...finley. we cannot wait to hold her in our arms and tell her face to face how much we love her. she has already been such a gift and loved beyond words. You have already used her to move mountains in our lives and i look forward to learning more about you through her.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

look who's here...

my sister, leslie, had her baby girl last week. she was born on february 23rd at 7:59 p.m. weighing in at 7 pounds 2 ounces 20 3/4 inches. i can't get enough of her. i love her so much. she is beautiful! here are a few pictures i took of her the other day....

i can't wait for her cousin to hurry up and get here. i know they will be the best of friends. i feel so blessed to share this time with my sister and that these two sweet girls will have each other. they just don't know how lucky they are yet :)