Sunday, July 18, 2010

11 months

today wyatt would be 11 months old. so hard to believe. i cannot even begin to imagine what he would look like at this stage. when i think of him, he remains a tiny baby. not a little one who is sitting up, learning to walk, and doing all of the things he should be doing. i am sure he would look just like his dad...maybe because i heard that a lot in the hospital. while time is not healing our pain we are continuously finding ways to live with it and occasionally around it. i pray today that our Father in Heaven is doing all of the things with wyatt that i so long to do. i find comfort in knowing that while wyatt is not physically here on earth with us, he is taken care of.

You, my God, are the Rock.
Your works are perfect, and all Your ways are just.
You are a faithful God who does no wrong.
You are upright and just.
Deut. 32:4

Thursday, July 8, 2010


this morning, as i was getting going and ready for the day, i pulled out my beth moore daily devotional..."praying God's word day by day." i love this little book. short and sweet but filled with God's word. not to mention, a close friend gave this book to me shortly after wyatt's death. she even went to the trouble to place little sticky notes here and there commenting on the devotions. so thoughtful and such a sweet reminder of the love and support we have. well...back to my point :), one of the verses for today was Psalm 31:7-8...

"I will be glad and rejoice in your love,
for you saw my affliction
and knew the anguish of my soul.
You have not handed me over to the enemy
but have set my feet in a spacious place."

i just loved this and really wanted to share it. i know this verse can apply to so many of us in so many different situations. but ultimately, it is nice to be reminded that HE is not far.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

i'm here. i'm here...

well once again, life has been super busy...which i am still so very thankful for. i think God knows i need to keep my hands full right now. a couple of weeks ago ryan and i went to the beach with my mom, dad, and sister. we had a wonderful time. it was so nice to get away and to be with family. the weather was great and i think we may have just missed the oil. the beach is one of my favorite places to be so i am so glad we had the opportunity to go. ryan doesn't usually get to go but, he was able to sneak away from work and join us...what a treat! we would get up early (only because ryan does NOT sleep in) and would go on a walk or bike ride. it was so relaxing. here is a picture....i'm not sure why ryan looks so red :) he really didn't get that burned.

on another note, i want to send you over to my dear friend sarah's blog. her daughter, mamie, was born a sleeping angel last june. sarah has been such a wonderful friend and support since we lost wyatt. in honor of mamie, she has teamed up with a local pottery store to create and provide plates for moms and dads who have lost children. i am so impressed! and i cannot tell you how special this will be for all of these parents. i know wyatt's hand and feet prints are some of my favorite keepsakes. they mean so much to me. while i love his blankets and the few clothes he got to wear, his prints are a part of him. i know the plates will mean the world to the parents who receive them. way to go sarah! i am so very proud of you and mamie!!! the link to her site is: