2 months

last sunday finley turned 2 months. wow how time flies! we had a few family pictures taken that weekend. and when i say family, i mean my mom, dad, sis, her munchkin, her husband, ryan, finley and i. my dear friend who shoots weddings with me agreed to take us on :) and i am so glad she did. i will cherish these days and memories forever. i can't help but smile when i look at the picture above. i think finley looks like a little doll. it cracks me up...those super round cheeks and all. i love it! what a sweet time.

finley has been doing wonderful. i am so proud of her. she has been sleeping through the night and we are working on afternoon naps now :) but that's my fault. starting at 6 weeks finley started sleeping about 6 hours at night. and then not long after, she has been sleeping about 9 hours! how lucky we are! i will not pretend this has anything to do with what great parents we are :) i think she just likes to sleep as much as her mom does..ha! so glad though! she also moved to her crib this past week. i know! i can't believe it! i finally gave in since she was sleeping so well. i feel like she is getting so big...so fast! and while i hate not having her so close all the time...i know this is good for all of us. i'll just keep telling myself that!

i swore i would never be 'that' mom with all of the schedules and such...but i am starting to see where this comes in handy. i certainly don't want to be too tied down every day, but a little routine never hurt anyone :) so we are working on getting down for regular afternoon naps...instead of napping in mom's arms. it's taking some time...but we are getting there. in fact, she is napping now :) i will admit, there has been a little screaming here and there, but everyday she goes does more peacefully and sleeps a tad longer. we'll call that success!

so basically, life has been very sweet. i am so thankful for these days and this time of our lives.

mother's day

again i have been trying to get on here, but i can't seem to figure out where the time goes :) well, we survived another mother's day. not really a big important holiday...but one that seems to remind you of what you don't have. really, i don't need reminding....i continue to think and miss him constantly. but i have to say, it was so nice to have finley here this year. she certainly brings so much joy into our lives and while i miss wyatt like crazy, i am so thankful for finley and her life. for the healing our Father has brought through her each and every day. she certainly brings life to us and i am forever thankful that HE blessed us with her. i am daily reminded what precious gifts children are. i pray i continue to realize this. both of our children mean the world to us. i so look forward to each and every day with our sweet girl. here's a picture from mother's day. we took it pretty easy...hence the lack of make up :) but i am determined to document all of my 'special' moments with this sweet little one. i continue to be reminded to take life one day at a time. to slow down and really take it in. enjoy each day...because it is a gift from above.

today...

i am so thankful. thankful for a God that allows me to take in one day at a time. i am so enjoying EVERY minute with finley. i have come to realize that healing comes everyday. it is not as though God has taken away the pain and sting of wyatt's death for good. He brings forth healing moment by moment. i continue to constantly think of wyatt. what he would look like, what he would be doing, how wonderful he would be as a big brother, what our home would look like with both of our children. these are all such painful questions. questions without answers here on earth. how grateful i am that the promise of eternity brings hope. that our our father made the ultimate sacrifice so that we may truly experience his love for us. i am so thankful. thankful for this beautiful day...for every breath i get to breathe here on earth with my loved ones. although i remain homesick for heaven and my little boy i know that we are blessed. that we are cared for and loved beyond measure. what more could i ask for?

"may the GOD of hope fill you

with all joy and peace as you trust in him,

so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."

Romans 15:13

a few pictures

just wanted to post a few pictures. i can't get enough of this little one!

the last picture makes me smile...finley and wyatt...my sweet little ones.

i love them both so much!